I so clearly remember how I wanted to be a mother. I watched new moms with their babies, and dreamed of holding a new baby of my own. Holding and bathing. Feeding and changing–a life of meeting my baby’s needs. And then, I became a mother. Four children in six years. Months and months of […]
When Pain Blinds Us to the Truth
The truth is hard to see when we’re in pain. Doubt settles in like an opaque cloud clinging to a mountain and never letting go. Confusion rolls in as a fog, preventing us from seeing more than a few inches beyond our face. And we can’t see the sun that shines above the thickness. We […]
My Grace is Enough {Letters from God}
I want you to know I see your heart. I know your motives. I sense your effort in longing to please me. How you read my words, write your prayers, and memorize my ways. And I love how you see others I’ve made–how you seek to connect with them and love them too. But in […]
Freedom Comes When We Reveal the Truth
The day my gown glides across the carpet, I believe I’ll be married forever. But reality turns out so much differently than I’d planned. In so many ways. Bad ways. And very good ways. Good ways only because of Him. But in those years amidst the guilt and shame, my heart longed for freedom. The freedom to […]
When You Wonder if His Mercy Can Find You Too
I wear it around my neck these days, this Word mercy, that changed everything for me. This richness of God, sent from the profoundness of His deep love. A generous love I can barely grasp– a kindness I’m still at a loss to comprehend. I remember a time I thought I actually understood it, in […]
For When You Need a Life of Peace {The Romans Project}
I memorize while I drive, at red lights and stop signs, these words of Paul which are soaking into my dry soul and reviving me each time I remember them. As we drive, the kids test me, stopping me if I make a mistake. And every Friday I record my voice reciting my learned verses, […]
Worship is a Posture of the Heart
I’ve stood before thousands to lead worship and raise my hands in praise to Him. I’ve sung solos on auto pilot while thinking about lunch and that lady’s crazy outfit on the front row. And just because we’re singing with our eyes closed and our hands raised, doesn’t mean we’re worshipping. And as the years […]
The Declare Conference and a Divine Appointment
It’s 10:30 on Friday night, when I stand in line to pick up my blog critique, longing to get some feedback to improve. I get to the front of the line just as they announce it’s time for the meeting to re-convene, so I return to my seat at the back of the room. Another hour […]
When You Wonder if You’ll Still Belong — When the Truth is Finally Told
It is five years after I remarry when I finally begin to make friends–when I start new. Because after the affair and the divorce and the loss of all I know, I have no other choice but to start again. We attend couple’s bible study every Tuesday for three years with the same five couples, […]
A Beautiful 2nd Blog-iversary!
Exactly two years ago today, with a lot of hope and excitement, I hit publish for the first time. I welcomed you, told you about me and my family, and hoped we could connect in this place. Because I’m a communicator, a connector, and a relator. And to be honest, the love of writing did […]
