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MS 023 Michelle DeRusha: Doubt, Unbelief, and Feeling Like a Spiritual Misfit

by Jacque Watkins

Unbelief Doubt in God Spiritual Misfit

Welcome to episode 023 of Mud Stories!

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Mud Stories is a podcast dedicated to bringing you inspiration in your muddiest moments, hope to make it through your mud, and encouragement for you to know, you are not alone.

In today’s episode I’m talking with Michelle DeRusha—writer, author, speaker and Massachusetts native,  who relocated to the Great Plains of Nebraska in 2001, where she discovered grasshoppers the size of Cornish hens … and God.

Michelle writes about finding and keeping faith in the everyday at MichelleDeRusha.com, and is the mom to two bug-loving boys–Noah and Rowan–and is married to an English professor named Brad.

Michelle struggled in the wilderness of unbelief for two decades, unwilling to commit to a God who didn’t fit her need for concrete, black-and-white answers. And it was only when she finally admitted her unbelief that she became aware of how God had long ago begun the slow process of bringing her back to Him.

In this episode Michelle shares:

  • Her childhood experience with church
  • How she stayed away from church and God for over 20 years
  • And how she struggled with faith for so long, having more questions than answers

Michelle describes:

  • How hitting rock bottom was the perfect view from which to look for God
  • The awkward experience of having so many firsts—first attending church, first buying a Bible, first mingling with believers, and the challenge of sorting through a whole new culture in the Christian faith
  • The discomfort of not having life all mapped out
  • And the beauty she’s discovered in a God who loves us no matter what
  • And who waits as long as it takes for us to learn how His grace is always enough, every single time.

Michelle shares with wit and transparency and I just know that you will identify with a portion of her story, which she tells with such candor, charm, and much hope!

 Mud Stories 023:  Despite our unbelief, God’s love is relentless & His grace has no limit [Tweet that]

And after you listen, I’d be SO grateful if you’d take the time to give a rating or review over at iTunes, to help others find this podcast. (follow the instructions below) Enjoy!

SCRIPTURE:

…Lord I believe; help my unbelief.
Mark 9:24 (ESV)
 

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  • Michelle’s Website: MichelleDeRusha.com

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LINKS:

  • Spiritual Misfit: A Memoir of Uneasy Faith, by Michelle DeRusha
  • 50 Women Every Christian Should Know: Learning from Heroines of the Faith, by Michelle DeRusha
  • The Case for Christ: A Journalist’s Personal Investigation of the Evidence for Jesus, by Lee Strobel
  • The Case for Faith: A Journalist Investigates the Toughest Objections to Christianity, by Lee Strobel
  • The Reason for God: Belief in an Age of Skepticism, by Timothy Keller
  • Amazing Grace: A Vocabulary of Faith, by Kathleen Norris

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  1. Michelle DeRusha | Got Mud? Yeah, Me Too says:
    December 10, 2014 at 3:01 am

    […] recently had the absolute pleasure to chat with Jacque Watkins, host of the podcast series Mud Stories. Jacque knew my gritty spiritual background would be a good […]

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