I sometimes get impatient with God. I don’t always understand the way He’s working and weaving in my life. And I want to see—I want to understand what it all means and what it’s all for.
Twenty years ago, I would never have guessed my journey would have looked like it has, like this. But with all honesty, I wouldn’t trade anything. Not even my bad choices, because you know what? It’s been through those He has changed me. Through the pain I have been made new.
And I suppose that theme will continue—that through the difficulties and obscurities I don’t understand, He’ll be working. That His view is vastly different from mine, and He considers the good of all when He works and weaves in me.
And the question becomes…
Will I trust Him?
Will I believe that it really is all for my good?
Will I trust even if I can’t see?
Will I believe He is good, even though I don’t understand?
Honestly, He may or may not ever allow me to see the whys.
He owes me nothing.
I’ve been bought with the blood of Christ and I’ve surrendered my very life for His purposes, whatever it is they are. And yet, there are so many times He does let me see—times I’m able to look back and get a glimpse of how He worked it all together. And each time I’ve been able to see, it’s been so complete and whole the way He’s woven it all together. Just so beautiful with every detail folded in.
And so …
No matter my fleshly impatience,
No matter my intermittent vision,
No matter the unknown turns ahead,
The answer for me will always be yes. Yes I will trust, and yes I will believe.
Even if, in the now, I cannot always see.
Have you trusted God when you could not see?
Have you been able to look back and see how He has worked it together for good?
I’m joining Lisa-Jo, over at her site today, to take five minutes and just write without worrying if it’s just right or not. The challenge is to write for 5 minutes flat with no editing, tweaking or self critiquing, with the prompt she gives. And today, her prompt:
See…
Oh wow, what a great post. I am feeling impatience right now. This is a good reminder to be patient and wait to see what He has planned for us and how this all fits into it.
Right now I can’t see, but I’m choosing to keep trusting. Thanks for the encouragement to keep doing that, and the be sure that beauty will be made from these ashes…even if I can’t see how right now, or what hat beauty might look like!
Such a different perspective on “see” to me… I love the way the prompt word can produce such a wide range of writings!
Jaque~ what faith He’s giving you, to trust even when you cannot see… I’m in the dark right now, trying to trust, learning to believe He is there and moving even as the darkness appears so still. He can be trusted, and I so appreciate your words today. I feel Him speaking to me through this truth. Thank you for sharing your faith, it encourages me.
Jacque…I wonder if any of us could see where our lives would take us beforehand..if any of us would go…all the more we see how His Grace is sufficient…Sometimes we have to look in the rearview mirror to see all the places He faithfully walked us through those times we felt blind…than we can look forward with more trust and believing…He is a good and loving God…always there with us. blessings to you my friend as we walk this journey of faith.
Yes, I have trusted when I could not see. And it was scary. But it was also the only way I would have survived.
Beautiful post.
I didn’t realize I hadn’t liked your FB page, so I just did.
I hope our paths cross at Allume in the fall. Your words speak to me.
Thank you,
Mary
http://memyselfandmercy.blogspot.com/
Thank you Jen…may your heart have peace as you wait!
Yes! I love that about five minute friday too! Be encouraged…God is working on turning it all to beauty, even if we never see.
And the darkness does feel still and empty, but He is closer even still…and thank you, thank you for your encouragement to me, that these meager typings of mine matter. *That* my friend, encourages ME! Have a blessed weekend 🙂
And Ro, how right you are that His grace is so very sufficient…and I’m guessing if we knew, really knew before hand, that we wouldn’t want to go. But how much we would miss by not going. Giving thanks for His lovingkindness and Sovereignty too. Blessings!
Mary…it IS scary, you’re right. And it will be a delight to meet you at allume 🙂
I emailed you, my friend. 😉
I am learning to trust Him, even when I cannot see or when I cannot understand the reason why things happen the way they do. He is always good and He will always lead me and guide me safely, no matter what my natural eyes see.
Beautiful post. “I believe. Help my unbelief.” He will guide us like a shepherd. Trust Him.
Oh, yes, Jacque. It’s a matter of deciding that you WILL trust, isn’t it? Not easy, but so worthwhile. And the peace that comes from knowing that you’re trusting the one true God of all–priceless!
Thanks so much for joining Grace at Home!