I memorize while I drive, at red lights and stop signs, these words of Paul which are soaking into my dry soul and reviving me each time I remember them.
As we drive, the kids test me, stopping me if I make a mistake.
And every Friday I record my voice reciting my learned verses, and email it to my Romans Project Group as a way to stay encouraged and accountable in community.
And although I eventually recite them without a mistake, in reality, not living them is the mistake I make.
The truth is I am forgiven, because of Christ. The Spirit of life has set me free.
So why do I insist on performing and striving, falling again and again into the trap of judging myself?
Measuring my worth by what I do, and refusing to realize what really matters…
Trying to check off lists,
Failing to get it all done,
Not achieving enough,
Or not being all I think I should be.
This is how I live, always needing to do one. more. thing. Dragging myself up each day and falling into bed each night, always striving in my flesh with it never being enough.
I do want life. And I need a life of peace.
And my heart feels the death when I measure my accomplishment in the flesh … the doom that I will never measure up.
And the truth is. I. never. will. And neither will you.
But to set our minds on the things of the Spirit … this brings life and peace.
A life of peace.
Because His ways are not our ways. And He can accomplish so much more than we can ever imagine in us when we surrender to His work and not our own–work He does in the spiritual realm we may never see.
So instead of striving and measuring ourselves in our flesh, let’s stop.
Light a big fat RED stop sign.
Stop judging our own hearts.
And let’s set our minds on the things of the Spirit.
Leaning on His Word,
Spending time with Him.
And surrendering to the season He is giving to us now.
And as we do, may His Spirit permeate our mortal bodies and give us life.
This life of peace we so desperately need.
Do you tend to be hard on yourself?
How does surrendering to the Spirit bring you peace?