I’m starting something new this week, and I really want to share it with you.
But I’m a bit afraid–because (to be honest) I’m not sure I can do it.
And I just may fail … because I’ve failed before.
Remember a while back I shared some goals, and invited you to join along in memorizing Romans 8? Well, I must say, I started out strong. I memorized Romans 8:1-10, but then the holidays came and I fell behind, and over time I gave up.
I also purposed to wake early in the morning, but I found it to be pure misery to drag my I-stayed-up-too-late-getting-things-done-in-peace-and-quiet body out of my cozy bed. And even when I did manage to get up, it didn’t end up being quiet time alone, since my family members are such early risers. So I gave up on early mornings too.
I failed, plain and simple.
And the truth is, I frequently have grand ideas and goals but sometimes fall flat when it comes to implementation. And you know what? I really don’t want to be like that. My intentions are good and I mean to follow through (really I do) but for one reason or another, it doesn’t happen.
And I’m guessing you may be a bit like me—that you may know some failure of your own. And I can tell you right now, I understand how that feels. Trust me. I do.
But I heard this phrase on the radio the other day, and it stopped my wallowing-in-the-regret-of-my-failure self, right in my tracks…
You haven’t failed if you haven’t quit.
And when I heard that, it took a minute for it to sink in. And I had to repeat it back to myself out loud (and I know, you’re picturing me talking to myself in the car and I can assure you it was just as funny as it sounds). I even groped for a piece of paper and scrambled to copy it down, because I didn’t want to forget.
And that phrase begged the question…have I quit? Will I quit?
And I decided then and there I will not quit. So, after much encouragement from a couple of friends who successfully memorized all of Romans 8, I’m joining them in their next adventure: a year-long plan to memorize the Sermon on the Mount, Matthew 5-7. We are starting this week, and we’ll be following the plan laid out by Ann Voskamp, memorizing 2-3 verses per week.
So last week I joined Scripture Typer, and I printed out the cards. Then I cut them and glued them into my Moleskine, and converted the two verses into first-letter prompts, to help with recall and memorizing.
And I’m diving in.
Even though I fall short, and even though I’m not sure it’s possible for me to do this, I’m deciding to take the risk and try.
And I’m wondering if you might want to join me?
I won’t lie, I’m nervous.
I don’t want to fail, especially after telling all of you.
But I haven’t failed if I haven’t quit, and neither have you. And that’s true no matter what it is. So let’s pick ourselves up, wherever we are, and keep going … keep moving … keep trying, no matter what.
So what do you say?
You wanna join me?
Is memorization hard for you too?
How have you felt like you failed lately?
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#1342 My oldest observing lent–us all together remembering His sacrifice
#1343 Co-op field trips and learning about the missions of CA
#1344 Spring break with our Kindergartener home
#1345 Lazy mornings
#1346 Refreshing rain
#1347 Foxgloves, Delphiniums, Bulbs, & Diascias placed into the ground–our yard almost finished
#1348 Planting with my hands
#1349 The feel of dirt between my fingers–a catharsis of sorts
#1350 Lunch with a friend
#1351 Cleaning house together
#1352 A wonderful dinner party with food and music
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#1354 Spring lunch with my Good Morning Girls
#1355 The anticipation of Easter, and all He did for me